02 March 2014

Tipping Point

 Please note: The intent of this post is not to be whiny or sad. My purpose in writing this post is to express how I'm feeling right now, in honest terms. Anyone who has traveled through difficult times knows that it's hard to keep a positive, "can do" attitude 100% of the time. It's ok to feel overwhelmed. It's ok to feel burdened. What's important is how you respond to those feelings and work yourself back to a better place. Today I'm simply acknowledging where I am in my journey.
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If you've been following my blog, you know that I've had a series of unfortunate events occur over the past few months. Although I try to stay positive, right now I truly feel like I'm at a tipping point. I've added so much to my plate that I'm way out of balance. My life is completely out of kilter and I don't even recognize it anymore. The particular tasks in front of me are all new and foreign. I'm going at such a pace that I'm not giving tasks my full attention. As a result, I make mistakes. And I don't easily forgive myself, so my self-esteem takes a hit. It's all a vicious spiral.

I just needed to get this off my chest today. I know I try to project a positive image all the time, but I don't want to appear to be something I'm not. I'm fragile, just like everyone else. And I'm tired. I'm tired of it all. I'd like to think tomorrow will be a better day, but tomorrow will just add more to the scale. 

I need balance, and I'm not sure where and when I'll be able to find it.



Kathy M said...

My parents are unable to care for themselves, but sadly, are fighting go to an assisted living. I am an only child with the only support is my wonderful husband of 30 years. In a wicked twist my mom can not hear the my pitch of my voice even with hearing aids. Thankfully my husband can and will be my voice as we go down this foreign road. We are preparing the family home of 30+ years fora sale. While not exactly the same, I can identify with so much that you are going through. Lean on your husband. Know that what we are doing may not be perfect, but it is the best that we can do.

Heather said...

Janet, I'm so sorry you feel this way. Just know you're not alone; we've all had those feelings from time to time. Sometimes we just have too many bad things happen all at once, and it's overwhelming. Hang in there!!

Kimberly Marie said...

Yes, I agree with Heather. Please know you're not alone! I hope there's some family and/or friends who you can ask to come along side you for a while to help lighten your load. One day at a time, one step at a time, until, finally, you'll be on the other side of these difficult and overwhelming times....{Hugs}

Janet said...

Heather & Kimberly - Thanks so much for your kind words. I am trying to focus on one thing at a time and asking for help with a few things. One day at a time. I greatly appreciate your wise advise! Thanks for stopping by.